Demons inside and outside..

I really don't know where to start..

With the year's that I have wasted

Or with the fear's that I'm fighting

They say everything falls in place when time comes..

When it is going to come..

May I know please??

For me, everything should be earned through blood and sweat

Everything challenges me to the core

It want's

Something new

Something better

And tougher me..

Once in a while I have seen the darkness around..

Darkness that takes me

To the bottom of the earth

Push me into the oceans 

Burn my heart into ashes

Hurt me like if hell can't do it better

But I am 

Putting blocks after blocks to climb higher

Swimming harder and harder towards shore

Trying everyday to withheld the pain

But still

I don't know where I end up 

I have no idea what will I be able to get in return

But i trust God, the mastermind 

And myself, the silly human

In preparing the swords and shields 

To fight better 

With the demons inside and outside